the need to breathe, the need to figure things out

Things have been way to still and quiet here and rachelramblebabble. The last blog post I wrote was more than one and a half month ago I think, yes? no?

Nearly every single day during the past one and a half month just went by leaving me in a daze, wondering how can time actually pass so fast?!?! I think this urgent realization of time passing by so quickly amplifies itself as one starts to errhmmm *cough cough* age.

So what have actually been going on you might ask?

Things have been pretty batshit crazy since I am in the last two months of my pre-clinical years. Tonnes of studying, tonnes of assignments, tonnes of tasks to complete.  In fact, I am only able to come up with a new blog post right now, just as I have already waved goodbye to 75% of my finals. 

A few important decisions about life and the future came into thought during the past one month, and I am glad that God gave me the wisdom to put things into the right perspective. Just keeping my fingers crossed and praying real hard that things will turn out to be fine.

Oh another thing that is, I am pretty sure I have not brought this up in the blog. Remembered some what during Chinese New Year I submitted an application to become a mission trip volunteer by Malaysian Medical Fellowship? I got accepted into the Chiang Mai, Thailand team!!! Pretty stoke about it especially after I found out that Chiang Mai is rated 24th on the World's Favourite Place to Travel To list. Will be leaving Malaysia for a good one week in the end of July, and be back just in time for Raya.

Fear not, I have not lost interest in writing in rachelramblebabble, in fact I am still pretty enthusiastic about it. I am glad that I have this little corner of mine where I can pour out my thoughts and feelings about happenings and incidents BUUUUUUUUUUT I am indeed struggling with a few issues here about rachelramblebabble.

Firstly, I am still trying to figure out what is the essence or core of rachelramblebabble. Should I "pen" down amusing happenings, personal feelings, food adventures or my journey of becoming a doctor? I have a few blog posts written halfway during that period of time, but I could not bring myself to finish them and right now they are still in my drafts folder oh gawd please enlighten me. 

Secondly, I am really really really trying to figure our how "open" should I be in this blog. I think that over the years, I have learned and grown to be more reserved about my emotions and feelings. I have this tendency of building tall walls around myself, not to shut people around me from me, but rather to keep myself guarded and safe. 

There are certainly more things for me to sort out about rachelramblebabble, and a lot more about life. I am pretty sure that as time passes, things will fall into place but right now, I still have another 25% more of my finals to work on, and all the batshit madness of my conference will start as soon as my finals is over! So you should be pretty sure that rachelramblebabble will be silent for the next few weeks again.

Anything amazing/amusing/ridiculous happened in your life of late?

Till then! Kthxbai!

"I will praise God's name in song and glorify him with thanksgiving."

Psalms 69 : 30

Where ignorance is bliss, 'tis folly to be wise

The extensive measures humans have done, are doing and will do to cave into social convention or in other words, the norm, simply baffles me.


In sociology a social rule refers to any social convention commonly adhered to in a society. These rules are not written in law or otherwise formalized. It is argued that these rules are socially constructed, that these rules act upon every member of a society, but at the same time, are re-produced by the individuals.

In order to gain societal acceptance, mankind are succumbed to uncalled-for social issues, such as peer pressure, racism, discrimination, physical abuse, emotional negligence,moral declination, prostitution, poverty and many more. 

Even right now as we are living in the twenty-first century, we are nowhere close to addressing all these issue yet somehow, one way or another, we manage magnify them. 

Oh well, this adds on to another incredulous never-ending cycle. 

Like what I said, it baffles me, and I am certainly still struggling with this. How I wish, how I wish sometimes that I am Sheldon Cooper. I will have more reasons to be inconceivable at implausible times.

 

 "Where ignorance is bliss, 'tis folly to be wise"

Stay away from fools, for you won't find knowledge on their lips.

Proverbs 14:7

21.12.12

is the day the ancient Mayans once predicted that earth will come to an end.

This is not the first time mankind got alarmed over such issue.

As a 90s baby, I had the chance to live through Y2K, which was also deemed as the apocalyptic year, and now this.

It is interesting how mankind always live in fear, wondering when will the world come to the end. As we strive through this rat race of life each day, to own bounties materially and emotionally, in the end, we will still leave the world empty handed when we return to the Lord, that is where we will have our eternal life not to mention all the blessings and happiness that come along at the same time. As for now, we still need to live each day to the fullest, as we do not know and will not know when will the world come to an end.

In the bible it was written, 

"No one knows about that day or hour, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father"

Mark 13:32

I should say that besides wandering what will ACTUALLY happen today, it had been a really good day for me. I had some decent alone time, which is a good breather for this whole hectic week, all in all, my weekend started well and who knows maybe it will get even better.

clinging on to memories,

just because we are humans and we are emotionally wired that way.

Biologically, the red highlighted area is where our memory is being stored.

The hippocampus is a horse-shoe shaped area of the brain that plays an important role in consolidating information from short-term memory into long-term memory. It is part of the limbic system, a system associated with emotions and long-term memories. The hippocampus is involved in such complex processes as forming, organizing, and storing memories.

From time to time, if not most of our waking minute, we constantly find ourselves swimming through waves of memories. Good or bad, they can be easily triggered by familiar person, objects, scent, surroundings or sounds. 

A huge portion of our memories carry the objective of  increasing mankind's productiveness and efficacy. In other words, we remember(generate memory) for the sake of achieving a goal. It could be as simple as remembering shopping lists to memorizing solid facts. 

The irony of mankind, despite having such highly functional brain is that the brain tend to generate its own "fictitious" memories, in other words, there is a possibility that our brain "remembered" something that did not happen. This is mainly the reason why human memories are considered unreliable.

 

Memories, be it good or bad will always be an undefinable paradox. Sometimes they will come in handy. Yet most of the time we find ourselves in a constant battle with an unforeseen victory ahead, the battle between remembering and forgetting. Hence, we hold on to our memories even tighter, but without us realizing, losing them too.

Back

after taking a long break from blogger. 

I really hope that Rachel Ramble Babble will not be another impulsive action of mine.

I feel like I have so much to say, so much to vent, so much to express but this is my first post, I shall allow simplicity to take its course.

There will definitely be more rambling coming along.